Self Care: Turning it Over
I’m just a work in progress.
Sometimes I forget that. I get busy dealing with situations, trying to help others, and don’t work on Jim, or more accurately, allow God to work on Jim.
That’s been happening lately. What brings it to consciousness is usually a combination of emotional and physical symptoms: feeling tired, struggling to get things done, feeling overwhelmed, wanting to pull the sheets over my head, looking for things to keep my mind occupied.
When this alarm goes off and I become conscious of what’s going on, I know pretty quickly what the problem is and what I have to do to reverse course.
I have to very intentionally turn control of all of the things that are weighing me down over to God. It’s not that I haven’t prayed often about all of the situations and all of the people, or that I don’t have faith that God will provide exactly what’s needed. It’s just that I have unconsciously retained a portion of the responsibility for the outcome. I haven’t completely given these things to God, robbing myself of the peace that comes from doing so. And of the joy of watching how He works and allows me to participate.
So today I began the day intentionally by doing just that — naming names, and listing situations, verbalizing my trust in Him to provide and lead. And I feel more peaceful, more able to respond to His urges for these situations and these people.
I’m adding “Turn Over Control” to my daily calendar. I need daily explicit recognition that I am not in control, but that the One I serve is.